I'm sitting at my desk. The last business day of the year. Accounting hell, normally. But today was slow and steady and nearly done by 3:30. Before I rush out the door to the busy that awaits me at home, the busy that does not expect me until 6pm, I decided to pause.
I lingered through my Facebook feed during lunch today and so many posts about out with the old in with the new. We all look forward to tearing off the page and looking at the hopeful blank canvas of the new one.
The last few years, I chose a little motto and said it in my head when things got cloudy, out of focus.
I am overwhelmed with the swirling thoughts of all I can do with my own blank canvas. And when I become overwhelmed, I go back to things I've said to myself in years past, things that get me to good.
Never wear your blessings like burdens
Do not let perfect be the enemy of good
Be where you are
Reminders that the things that haunt me are really of such little importance when I line them up against a simple sentence. I find myself longing for another simple sentence to add to the list of wisdom.
I saw some things that worked well for me this year
You might read those words and thing they look like a pile of cliches, things people commit to doing, but to me, I see a loving list of works that make my heart sing, so I know they are MY things. Hard things that I can do. Things that will give me joy
Things I want to leave behind
I want to pay attention to what is ruling me.
I want to be bold, and beautiful, and humble, and healthy. I know what those words mean to me.
The stillness of this moment washes over me, and I am reminded beyond the shadow of a doubt that I am loved and blessed and cared for. When moments are frenzied, if I can remember to be bold, and beautiful, and humble, and healthy, I can love better, both myself and my others.
Thank you for beautiful lessons 2013, thank you for a beautiful life. Joy awaits, I only need to be still and know. My heart is open and ready for all the good as I turn my page and look at my blank canvas.