Last night was a really great night. Bryson went one stretch between feedings 4.5 hrs and he slept 2.5 hrs of that, so did I. Amazing how it feels, I probably only got 6 hrs of sleep tops. But I feel like a new woman!
And then today Bryson met his grandma and grandpa and several times I found that my hands were free. Free to take a picture, free to color with the girls, free to blow dry my hair, free to finish my birth announcement. FREE. I think milk-free for me is working for Bryson - he had an almost fuss - free day. I woke up to him tooting, knowing, feeling it would likely be a good day, and it was.
We went out to dinner tonight, for the first time with all three kids. Sure we had 5 adults, but it felt like success for me to schedule nursing and eating, and finding milk free stuff on the menu, etc. Everyone behaved and we got home an hour after bedtime, everyone went right down, and well, today was a day that felt like things just worked. Sure, I'm tired and beat and exhausted even, but I feel like I can do this and I want to do this. This is an amount of tired I can live with. After a terrible day like yesterday, I needed that.
Lily's bible verse this month at school is Psalms 100. Before I went to bed last night I decided to look it up and read it. I reread it 3-4 times. It is about being joyful and thanksgiving. Last night when I went to bed, I thought a lot about how truly joyful I am, in spite of how hard things sometimes seem. I gave thanks and it felt good. I want to remember to have joy in my heart every day. Joy in your heart feels good.
Here are a few pictures of Bryson meeting his Grandma Carol and Grandpa Steve and I was happy enough to have my hands free to capture a picture of him with them.
Hoping for more days, just like today.